Musicality - Flight of Imagination

Tango music is an acquired taste. The first few times I found myself at a milonga I noticed that I could not really tell one song from another, they all sounded the same. The first time I heard the words "OMG I love this song!" from a partner, the question that followed in my mind was "why?" as in, "this music is so uninteresting, what is there to like?" I remember feeling my preference for alternative, pop music when I danced. I felt more free in it, I could understand it better, it was more fun. Over the years though something began to change, and I found myself experiencing unexpected bursts of emotion when certain tangos played. Suddenly I would be transported to a very specific place and time, to a very specific memory and the song would move me as if I myself wrote it.

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My first concrete attempt at understanding tango music happened a couple of years ago when I attended a musicality workshop with Alex Krebs in Portland. I remember many brilliant things about that weekend, but the overpowering feeling that I was left with at the end was something that resembled a combination of bewilderment and confusion. I saw and understood that there was a way of hearing and expressing the music in the dance that illuminated and made visible the individuality and uniqueness of each orchestra, but I had absolutely no idea how... 

Being an educator I am always fascinated by the process of journeying from a place of not knowing to a place of knowing. So in my musical conundrum I saw a perfect opportunity to study myself, my own mind, my own processes of learning. My goal was straightforward - to develop the ability to distinguish between orchestras in order to know what and how my body wants to express the music. I quickly learned what did not work for me. Anything to do with memorizing, making notes, lists, or reading about the songs, reading the lyrics... basically anything language-based did not help me, it only frustrated me. But then I did stumble upon a very simple, very effective, and pleasurable process that has made the study of tango musicality a pure joy. 

The process revealed itself suddenly one night at the start of my 6-month stay in Buenos Aires in 2015. I was having one of those sublime cosmic dances in the darkly lit La Viruta. With my eyes closed I was aware of the blue light shining from the left and the deafeningly loud music blaring from the corner speaker. Suddenly I was transported to a different place and time, I was a glamorous 1930s Jean Harlow type running after my lover (Clark Gable maybe?) through an opulent palace. Everything in my movement was the emotion of the inner drama I felt. The song was a whole lifetime and it was alive through my body. As I opened my eyes after it ended, I was completely disoriented and walked away from my partner in the opposite direction of where we were supposed to go. The process found me - imagination.

I began to approach each song as if it were a soundtrack to a movie I was starring in. I let my imagination take over and I noticed my mind would embellish more and more the drama of the songs I was hearing. These dramas have become more specific and unique. With Fresedo I might be in a sweet silent film with Charlie Chaplain, while in some late DiSarli I am in a 1950s epic hollywood film. My imagination takes me to places of deep, mysterious emotions with Pugliese, reminding me of ancient tragedies. But with Canaro, there is rarely anything but sweetness and nostalgia, like memories of childhood. Sometimes I feel youthful and innocent other times I am full of rage and passion. Now dancing tango for me is not just about choreographing specific steps in a visually pleasing way. There is another dimension where every movement, every gesture arises from the emotional dialogue I have with the orchestra I am hearing. 

The obvious reward of this exploration is the feeling of satisfaction I get when I realize that I now do recognize a lot of the orchestras that I am dancing to. There are few things more satisfying than setting a goal for yourself and then actually achieving it. But what is more interesting to me is the fact that I was able to initiate a learning process of something I did not understand, without any guidance from anyone else, without spending time researching or studying. I learned from my own body, by observing and studying my own mind, constantly coming back to the pleasure of the dance and what I was seeking revealed itself so simply and so gracefully. There was no difficulty, there was no struggle there was no enduring of something for a while before you get the rewards... I simple went from not knowing into a place of knowing and the path of pleasure proved to be the best shortcut.

Interested in learning more about tango music? Join my FREE Musicality talk on September 6th and Weekend Intensive September 9-10. Find more information here.